let me go...

*i dont give a damn*

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im not in the mood now.

there so much things to think about.

i feel so down inside.

and i still find the reasons why..

those people talking shit about others but they just dont realize what the f-ing shit they talking about.

hey, who are you to judge people?

i guess u know the answer kan?

Person who think that they know everything & think that they are so GOOD. Look yourself in the mirror.

You can talk shit about me.

But please stop judge me coz u dont even know me better.

i know im good in my social life, clubbing sometimes just like other teenagers do and having fun.

but doesnt mean that u can talking shit bout me.

u dont have the right to judge me. i dont give a damn with other people life.

Im being nice.

Im a girl i suppose to treat people nice.

NOT rude!!

and if i do make mistake, i dont mean too.

nobody likes mistake k..

but this is life.

that's why we said "WE LEARN FROM MISTAKE" from the mistake we will improve our ownself.

nobody is perfect in this world.

I may be that girl that you think solid.

but i have feelings too.

so people especially boys please.

DONT ever call a girl SLUT,BITCH,WHORE. or watever.

that girl might be the one u fall for one day.

because..

sometimes, we wont get what we owez asking for and want in this life but the other way round.

that is what we called life.

sorry for being so emotional.

but im writing about the truth.

ough.

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p/s: i thank God for letting me facing all the hardest moments in my life.

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xoxo,

jen.

blah!

F-ing SHIT.

ough.ough.

they are grown up!

OMG!

got these photos from my sis yesterday.

i just cant wait to meet both my beloved little cousins this November.

will give them big hugs3 and kisses!

baby anyang & lil uding

little uding

baby anyang

he smiled!!

their acts

adorable!

peace..

lil uding tried to do the sign of peace

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currently listening to: 21 guns by green day (love tis one)

mood: bersantai

thinking:sleeping

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ough ough.

i have the Power System test this evening.

wish me luck.

=)

thats all for now readers.

happy friday.

nite2~

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love,

jen

09.09.09

today is 09.09.09

i woke up late this morning

sorry to Mdm Shariah.

i supposed to be in her class before 8am but i was 30 minutes late.

*dgn muka sekda perasaan masuk klas and i looked damn sleepy*

she might think that im too annoying.

ough.

at least i came to her class rather than i ponteng kan?

teehee..

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i currently listening to : Far Away by Nickelback.

mood: pissed off

thinking of: peaceful

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ough.ough.ough.

i just need that slight breeze of bliss right about... now.

well. it doesn't have to make any sense you know.

i blame this on all the thoughts that's apparently stuck in my head.

the answer is within the question and i don't like riddles either.

i just can't help myself.

it's amusing to see you try.

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love,

jen

the sun smiles..so i shine.=)

i've tried so many times but i just cant.

and now i understand why..

it's not your fault.
but why does it hurt like hell?
im trying not to be selfish but i can hear my heart break.

owh..

forget it.

i hate waiting sometimes.

and i wont wait for nothing like that.

it doesnt worth it.

i dont blame anyone..i blame it all on the stoopid situations.

The first time in my life i feel like this.

and now the truth is so clear.

i feel so calm to where I belong and I'm so happy now.

the feeling is so strong and now I let myself be sincere.

I wouldn't change a thing about it because this is the best feeling i ever had..

=)

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goodnite everyone. have a blessed wednesday.

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love,

jen

zaman dulu2..

If you born in 1975 - 1987..

the childhood. [im in yellow]

Kita membesar dgn nangga G-Force,Power Rangers,Doraemon,Dragon Balls,Transformers, Thundercats, Silver Hawk, Woody Woodpecker, Chipmunks n Mickey Mouse. Not to forget NinjaTurtles, Mask, Smurfs dan Voltron. lg satu Gaban & Baja Hitam.

Berus gigi time waktu rehat kat skolah rendah?...hmm, mesti pegang cawan warna-warni kan? yang cute2 bah. then berus gigi mesti cute2 yang ada gambar kartun2 pastu mencangkung kat tepi parit dgn classmates semua kat seblah...ingat tak, misi kat skolah masuk kelas dgn list dentist appointment. Pastu bunyi gigi member kite kene gerudi kat bilik sebelah. ada gigi yang berlubang, kene laa tampal. i got myself a button badge "i love my teeths". thanks to the dentist.

nok tok sure torang ingat...program minum susu di skolah. nak galakkan budak2 time ya minum susu. sekotak 30 sen jak....pastu ada la lori or van milo datang sekolah.berbaris2 kita tunggu giliran utk dapatkn milo.

cikgu2 mun mok denda, mesti guna pembaris panjang warna kuning or merah..mun merah mrik pedas skit..tp,paling best..rotan bilit guru besar la! Pukul tapak tangan...? Ada nok kat buwit especially mun x mbak recorder(ler nok instrumen kdak seruling ya)..

Sebungkus Kueh Tiaw,Mee Goreng or Nasi Lemak,50 sen jak kat kantin. murah siot2. pastu grenti beli keropok lee fah or doraemon ya.ala2 mee bah. nyaman aie.

time skolah menengah,torang sure beli kasut skolah Bata BM Turbo atau Pallas Jazz. Mun nok kaya ya,ada la north star tp around Form 2 or Form 3 la makei..ada yang suka kasut high-cut yang buatan china tu...ada yang suka stoking tebal laaa.......n the gurls,sure stokin nya smpei peha..mun sik half drpd betis.

masuk form 4 or 5..style ada lain skit....mun rambut nok laki dolok,nang pakei gel nok keraskan rambut ya..knek tok..hah! pakei wax jak dah cukup..if gals plak, grenti rambut ekot style masing2.

Friendster,Facebook & MySpace...apa benda ya ka? tp,Cyber Cafe tauk...coz jarang bah org ada wireless kat umah if dbandingkan nowadays..

CD? apa ya ka? Dengar lagu nang dr tape rega Rm 15.90 ya....

Pegi kedai runcit, beli Cikerdis, Mamee , Kum Kum, UFO, O-Ya, Ding Dang chocolate balls yang ada mainan kat dlm die, 'telur' keras warna warni, 'rokok' chewing gum, KIKI Bubble Gum. tak dilupakan, 'TiKam'.

bile dah abih exam, main Monopoly la, Donkey la, Happy Family,ping- pong laa dlm class. Ney da PSP!! Paling best la,mun ngatar surat ya bukan main gik ayat dlm surat ya..ugut member suh nya ngantar gi nok nembiak ya la...knek tok,direct gi nombor nya! Handphone!sekda surat2 dh. hp k..

lagi sigek, loceng masa mok pegi rehat. tinggal kan keja skolah, jom kita pegi makan! budak2 yg yang jadi pengawas ya mesti kluar awal.of coz around 10 mnit before rehat!

lagi satu yang seronok time Pendidikan Jasmani , PJ. main bola laa,rounders laa...permainan kegemaran, main guli, batu seremban, penutup botol, batang aiskrim, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-three' , 'Police & Sentry', main kejar2 duduk.....ada juak main baling selepar (selipar kaki tiga)..haha!pastu kita hilangkan dahaga dgn aiskrim 10 sen. Yang tube aiskrim, ada byk2 color gik ya.mun mok half..patahkan kat tengah2 ya..lipat kertas kecik2, pas ya polah lastik.
hmmm..nok tok pun main juak..ala2 Counter-Strike la konon...Baling Kapur la...hmm.

nembiak2 knek tok, bagi diorg, diorg mane penah dgr lagu 'We Are theWorld, We Are the Children...' dan lagu 'Uptown Girl' yang cdak tau,nok Westlife nyanyi...... .bkn Billy Joel nyanyi...bg cdak, ada 1 jak Jerman kat dunia tok n 1 jak Vietnam ..CD pun wujud time cdak lahir.Niang Michael Jackson dah putih dah time ya...Cdak percaya Spiderman dgn Incredible Hulk ya filem2 baru.Cdak xpat bayangkan skrin hitam putih utk sebuah komputer.Cdak xpenah tau pun 'Atari' dgn 'Game & Watch'.Cdak xpercaya penah ada TV hitam putih.... dan cdak knek tok x reti nak switch on TV mun xda remote control.Dah cdak x paham gney kita dpt survive dlm universiti tanpa handphone...bergayut pun kat pondok telepon kaler biwu ya..& cigek gik,cdak nembiak2 knek tok cuma paham 85% nok Malaysia tok is Semenanjung only..so,Sabah & Sarawak mcm another country...soklan mcm "owh,ko datang sini(contoh:KL) kene pakai Pasport ke?" Dolok kita mpun thinking Wawasan 2020,knek tok...1Malaysia...eh?Bah,ngecheck kita tok dah tua ka x..:


1.Torang paham apa nok torang baca kat atas & sure torang senyum..
2. Majoriti skoolmates upmoz suma dah married...da juak nok dah divorze kalik..
3. Torang sure pelik time nangga nembiak2 kecik main komputer, selamba jak..
4. Nembiak2 Form 1 dah da hphone dimbak ke skool..ku rasa nembiak2 skool rendah pun dah da hphone..
5. Majoriti,nang makei SMS la mok ber'comunicate'...but,mun personal gilak..nang call la..
6. Dolok SIMcard nang around RM100 kdak ya la..knek tok...nang murah smpei skati ko letak jak hphone..Jumpa member pun kdak2 ya jak....or mun mok meriah gik..nang polah spontaneous gathering...n klaka hal2 lawak masa kecik...main parit la,tangkap ikan kat parit la..mcm2...
7. last skali, mun dah baca notes tok,u guys realize mun dikenang saat tok semua dgn mendalam.. nang adala diantara kita mengalirkan air mata..ya la, ney x nembiak zaman knek tok xkan lalui zaman yg kdak ya gik...

Sayang eh,time move fast...mun x perasan...skati torang la...Yang penting kenangan ya xkan aku lupakan sampai bila-bila...nang bez la..

rindu la dgn zaman dulu2. huhu..+_+

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love,

jen

Parteh-parteh..whooo!

herlow peeps. its been a while since my last post.

wireless suxs and everything suxs here.

ough ough.

last midnight was awesome.

i went to parteh2 with bunch of friends (borneo peeps).

the place: Hitz Borneo somewhere at ******** by bestie, Ritah(sponsored).

i had fun and got my brain away from those stressing stuff before

facing phase test that is on next week.
(thank God my 1st paper is on Friday evening).

=)

btw, today is Alma birthday.(6.09.09)

so we bullied her to drink glasses of Tiger that nite.

cheers for Tiger dear.

love carlsberg. (it was Tiger nway)

with bestie Ritah. thanks for the nite dear!

Borneo peeps. (bday gal is in pink)

i wonder why did alma close her eyes..?

someone getting high~


[alma,clara,marvin & elroy]

cheers~

elroy & me

clara & me

clara & marvin

clara & elroy

Gorgeous Girls~

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when we reached, there werent a lot of people but it was getting crowded when

the nite getting older.ough.ough.

we enjoyed drinking & dancing all nite long..

we had fun!

and someone got drunk by d way.

hua hua hua.

I dont wana mention who.

thank you to beloved bestie Rita for sponsored the drinks.

and to the birthday girl, have a blessed days ahead.

God bless you and hugs3!

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p/s: more photos will be upload in my fb.. =)

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love,

jen

ough September.

dear september,

You did me proud today:) On your 2nd day, I handed in my lab's report which due date is on Tuesday nexweek.
owh.
i feel so proud coz it was my first time i sumbit lab's report earlier before the due date.
ough ough.
Hopefully everyday gets better...keep up the good work jen!
im counting down the days for Raya's holiday.
i just cant wait.
but before that, i have this phase test on a week before Raya's holiday. ough.
need some more brainwash! i guess!
God Bless me.
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i miss my puppy bubu.

RIP Bubu. i miss u a lot.

*cute little Bubu*

*xoxo*

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p/s: i need more energy for this week and to neutralize back my body.im so addicted to 100 plus and i can finish 4 cans a day. 2 cans are enough bah.

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love,

jen

dear beloved August..

Dear August,I wished I had more of you,you're so much fun, it has only hours since you're gone and I'm already missing you so.

Why did you have to leave so soon? ough ough. do you remember the last few days event? ough.ough. i hope ure still remember.

on last saturday..

*went to Jalan Masjid Jamek with Trecyta*

we wore mask *beware of H1N1*

Trecyta bought a saree for her friend's sister engagement.

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we spent almost 3 hours to find a suitable saree and finally she bought one that is very suitable for her. white saree. i love white and thats y i chose that saree for her.cantik kan?

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at late evening,we just hung out together with Rita (picked her at Chow kit)

sambil jalan2 cari mkn and cuci2 mata.

and arrived at campus b4 10pm.

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the night event? auwww..we celebrated Marvin's Birthday that nite. supposed to be on 27th August but seemed like everyone were busy on weekdays and we planned to celebrate it on Saturday. Happy 23rd Birthday to u, Marvin. have a blessed day ahead and God bless u.

*bday boy*

*sesi potong cake*

*rita n i*

*elroy enjoy singing*

*with the bday boy*

we really enjoy ourselves.

the great and awesome nite ever!

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On the 30th of August,it was on the merdeka's eve. we had this barbecue at aunt's house.

*makan2*

*clara n i*

*with aunties*

*Gorgeous Gals*

*notice the lil gal behind?she's so shy2 one*

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Thank you, August!!!

P/S: I'll miss you so and hopefully September can learn a thing or two from you:) *prays hard*

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love,

jen

From the bottom of my broken heart.

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you now, still I miss you somehow

Chorus:
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two i'd like you to know
You were my first love,
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose

From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time will find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said,
"Please stay. Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart through my dreams
Through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love,
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose

From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time will find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you make it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Never look back," we said,
How was I to know I'd miss you so?

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p/s: all the things we did keep haunting me. there's something i gotta say..but i just cant.

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lost,

jen