31st of August

As the clock strikes 12 midnight, every Malaysian wished each other Happy Merdeka. It has been 53 years since we have our own independent day stretching back to 31 August 1957 but as for Sarawak n Sabah, they joined Malaysia on the 16 September 1963.

but i don't feel the spirit here maybe because everyone is in the mode of 'studying' due to the midsem test this week. mcm hapa jak kan? watever. Power Quality's paper is next but im more into Control System right now. *nerding mode is ON on Merdeka Day*

what does Merdeka means to u? to me Merdeka is freedom for us to love our neighbours around us. sometimes, i wish that Sarawak become an independent state just like Singapore & Brunei because today i dont see Sarawak gets benefits in term of economy, technology and etc. May God bless Malaysia! Happy Independence's Day to all Malaysians. Peace. :)

love,
jen

its 30th august.

today is 30th of August and a day to Independence Day and yet i dont feel any Merdeka Spirit here.
and sadly,our Merdeka's Eve plans were cancelled due to our MidSem Test mode is ON and everyone is currently nerding their brains out. and as for me,im having headache and feeling so frustrated with the Microcontroller Intrfacing pratical test just now.
i am failed when it comes to programming things.
*punch20x*
okay.enough.3 more papers to go. fast. fast.
thats all for now people.
i critically needs rest as i have this panda eyes and a huge pimple on my right cheek.
@.@
have a blessed Monday everyone.

lov,
jen

it's never simple, never easy..

there's so many things to think about.i am so pissed off and feeling down when it comes to this matter.
why must this thing bring me down whenever i starts to forget those things? i know, people are people, and sometimes we changed our minds.
but i never wanted this and i never want to feel like this.


sigh.

:)

hello people.

its been a while. i am so busy with the assignments,lab reports & quizzes lately. *breath in breath out*.

im having headache now due to the freaking hot weather in Selangor. oh rain, plz do come.

September is coming as well as midterm test that is on the 3rd-5th Sept. i have 4 papers including pratical test on programming. *uhuks.nerding week is coming*

anyhow. last weekend was great. i spent my weekend with my belofy lil sis. :)

the sisters with love

:/

shopping moment~

:)

now i miss her ody.. :(

till then, hugs~

p/s: i cannot wait for September to come. I'll tell you why in the next post.so stay tune~ :)

love,
jen

dear Him.

dear Lord,
forgive me for i have sinned.


"I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away .."

Amen.


your beloved daughter,
jen.

p/s: imy.

what should i do when my heart still missing you..? sigh.

i wrote a few chapters..

6.7.2007.the day when I first met you
My life turned a page
Chapter one was how true love was made
You taught me with your kiss
Things about romance I missed
You knew everything from A to Z
What pleases you and what pleases me
Every chapters were about how much you loved me and how our love was meant to be.
13.09.09,it was on ur birthday. when love became to jealousy & when there was no honesty between us.
And it ended with the words broke up a week after.

January came in d beginning of 2010,when the two of us were trying to bounce back and try to make a new relationship.
We agreed & we tried to forgive and to forget..
but we just hung it up after that..till..
5.5.2010..when everything went to normal just like the first time i met u..
When the day u asking me "would u be my girlfriend?"
Im speechless & i let u kept wondering and waiting for my answer.
If you knew how much this moment means to me and how long I've waited for u.
If u knew how happy u are making me coz I never thought I'd love u so much.
You should understand the reasons i did these and u should know that in my heart i still love u.
Till 1 day, i found something unexpected.
You should just tell me the truth that I wasn't the girl for u.
I loved you so..but you leave me without news.
Now i keep wondering the reasons why u did these to me.
and I'm the only one there for me at night when the tears endlessly come.
end.

from the bottom of my broken heart.

dedicated to him

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Chorus: Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

p/s: dear you,it never should have come to this.. :(