A mean reply, so I scream.. Another fact about nothing at all And then i cry and forget about everything before Promising that i will never fall again I know this much is true Little by little I think i'll understand this Little by little I think i'll comprehend it It'll take some time to find it out To make a change, you gotta change your mind Cause it's hard enough to get a grip It's hard as it is without us being left behind I know this much is true so i will forget this to makes everything ok... winks2
i am so emotional...omg! huhu...i got Engineering Maths3 test tomorrow n i havent get my brain full with this calculation things.hurm.i need REST. hurm. daaa peeps!
ola bloggy..i just feel like i need to write sumthing.."luahan hati kunun2." i confuse with my own feelings nowadays... sigh.. there’s soo much that’s going on in my mind now. missing someone.how i wish the person know how does i feel towards him n tell him that i got a crush or maybe like or maybe love on him but i just cant...omg!im afraid for this feelings! Stressing my ass off :(..Its givin me a headache. should i? or shouldnt i?
There’s nothing I can say to you Nothing I could ever do to make you see What you mean to me
Life now is complicated and frustrating. I m stressing away as usual but the load this time is way way too much. hurm. i damn so busy nowadays with my assignments,labs and also engineering maths3 test this coming wednesday. my mom did asked me either i want to goin back to kch or not this midterm break which is next week but then i answered "NO.." coz sian bah my frens alma n synz. sik mok leave them all alone during this mdterm break at hostel..omg!hurm... k la peeps..to be continue on my next post.sleepy dh me..nite2~ winks3
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY (19.02.09) TO DEAREST STEPHANIE PRISCA ANDRA!!!
stephy n i (times square)
omg! welcome to the club (2nd level) dear! hua hua..she is my beloved cousin and we are very close..we share Happiness,Laughter,Sadness and whenever she feel down,i will feel the same way too.i am very emotional so tats y. May God bless you dear and bless ur wishes! lots lots of love from me to u..huggies!
p/s : join me club this saturday nite.located at sh 4-** . free of charge.no worries...stephy only!
Happy Belated Valentine's Day peeps..sorry for the late wished. a bit busy nowadays. huhu. im still sleepy and i still need rest. i just lost my room's(hostel) key yesterday.not lost actually but as what my fren said, "Selamat jatuh di dalam lubang toilet"..omg! damn i felt so angry with myself by tat time. fuh..i need to find a reason to che wan(the hostel's wardent) to claim a new key. huhu. haha..
btw, i celebrated my valentine's with my friends. so sweet of them. huhu..got this valentine's cake and also makan2,mejeng2 n mabuk2.but im not drunk la. i just dont feel like i wana drink too much tat day.no reasons y...here are some photos tat we took...
the valentine's cake [chocolate blueberry cake chosen by me]
walter & stephy
adz & synz
happy valentine's day..
me & elRoy
marvin aka bluehyppo
joget ngansar ke kaki
tim n adorable danish
peace by danish
what can i say here is..i enjoyed my nite but felt damn so exhausted. Thanks a lot to elRoy's aunt for invited us to celebrate the valentine's day with them and also to elRoy, cheers for chivas regal....ahaha.
i feel..omg! pissed off and sad. no reasons y..sometimes i dont understand with my own feelings.. sigh~ Honestly...this feeling hurt me the most. i am so emotional now...
"I Will Be" There’s nothing I can say to you Nothing I could ever do to make you see What you mean to me All the pain the tears they cry Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go I know I let you down but its not like that now This time I’ll never let you go I will be all that you want and get my self together Cause you keep me from falling apart All my life I’ll be with you forever To get you through the day and make every thing OK I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring But now I see honestly You're the one thing I got right The only one I let inside Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around Cause I would never let you go I will be all that you want and get my self together Cause you keep me from falling apart All my life I’ll be with you forever To get you through the day and make every thing OK Cause with out you I can’t sleep I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave You’re all I got You’re all I want Yeah And with out you I don’t know what I’ll do I could never ever live a day with out you Hear with me do you see your all I need And I will be all that you want and get my self together Cause you keep me from falling apart All my life (my life) I will be with you forever To get you through the day and make every thing OK I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get my self together Cause you keep me from falling apart And all my life you know I will be with you forever To get you through the day and make every thing OK
ola bloggy..i am so free now. my brain exhausted n also my body. just finished 2 cans of 100 Plus (i know sounds so rakus) but who cares?i need my energy back and i havent take my dinner yet coz i got class at 8til10pm just now. what i want for now is just REPAY my Sleeping Beauty back! omg! i got this panda eyes! @o@. sigh~. im blogging now while listening to "i will be" by Avril Lavigne ...so in love with this song nowadays..so to those who read this post,do listen to this song.winks3~ huhu. huhu...
Sometimes..when we are in love,we dont realized it. and sometimes when we love someone,but the person we love never have the same feelings with us. but then sometimes,when we never have any feelings on the person but the person truly have a feeling on us but never want to tell the he/she love bout the feelings.
im not feeling well today. had a deep thinking bout something..my body n my brain keep on working nowadays and finally..im having my relaxing time now..k la peeps. got to move and have my sleeping beauty..nite2~
p/s : When u Like or Love someone,just tell him/her. who knows he/she have the same feeling too as u do. or else you'll regret one day.just be Honest when you are in Love.
04 Birthdate : ::march 10,1987. Remember the date!huhu.
05 Family : ::6 family members included me. missing them badly nowadays.especially Laksa Sarawak made by mommy. huhu..=( . my bro is at Cyberjaya still studying while the others haruslah at kuching.
06 Height : ::5'7
07 Weight : ::i havent get my latest weight..but i look so chubby now and i guess no more gain after this. keep on dieting jen!
08 Something good about yourself : ::i care bout others feelings.
09 Something bad about yourself : ::very.very.emotional.try me.
10 Describe your personality in one word : ::Lovable
11 Celebrities that you like : ::Britney Spears(im a big fan of her laztime n for now on) ::Jordin Sparks ::Jessica Alba ::Christian Bale ::David Cook
12 Songs you like : ::nothing but ordinary by avril lavigne ::dangerous by kardinall offishall feat akon ::Mad by Neyo ::Far away by Nickelback ::forever by chris brown ::worth the wait by jordin sparks ::tattoo by Jordin Sparks ::always be my baby by David Cook ::i do listens to Bidayuh n Iban songs too..
13 Fav. Season : ::holiday's season..ahakz.
14 Game you’re good at : ::the Sims
15 My ideal woman or man : ::one of the sexiest woman, Victoria beckham.
16 If you have to choose between same age/older/younger? ::i rather choose older.
17 Your mood right now : ::exhausted
18 What you have in your pocket right now : ::nothing.
19 Sleeping out : ::Sometimes.sleeping in ada?
20 Alcohol tolerance : ::i have my own limit!
21 Drinking habits : ::i dont have tat habits its juz for satisfaction.
22 How old were you the first time you drank : ::i cant remember la ngek..
23 When do you want to get married : ::between 26-29.
24 About my singing : ::im nt good at singing but i love to sing when i feel i want too..who cares..i want Redbox or News KTV plz!! reminds me of the nostalgic..
25 About my dancing : ::im good at dancing. seriously! i dont show my talents unless necessary..ooopsss.
26 Something I want these days : ::Sony Cybershot Camera(the latest one)..would u buy it for me?i want the blue color.
27 When you’re home alone : ::i sing.i dance.i jump3 around and laughing at myself.gila eh.sot2.
28 When you’re standing in front of the mirror : ::i look deep inside my eyes and tell myself 'i do have two beautiful eyes'. and i will smile widely n tell myself "no wonder people love my smile" and as i turn back,i see my 2 bubbly stupid ass moving. =))
29 Clothes you’re wearing right now : ::pinky pyjamas given by my mommy. =))
30 How much money do you have in your wallet : ::ntg.only 1 cent. i dont keep my money inside my purse.
31 What you want to buy for your girlfriend/boyfriend : ::boyfriend?kawan lelaki eh? might be "..who live in d pineapple under the sea? SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANT..!!" dolly.
32 Does height matter to you : ::nopee..average height bah me.
33 What song do you sing when you go to sing karaoke : ::song?bintang kehidupan by yanti&ronie
34 What would you do if you had plans with your friend but they never showed up:::pissed off~
35 What would you do if the person you loved cheated on you : ::kick their a** off!
36 How long will you be able to wait for the person you love : ::if he truly and honest love me,i will wait for him. worth the wait.
37 First kiss : ::by my mom when she gave birth to me.
38 A feature you feel doesn’t need to be fixed : ::my heart.coz once it broke it will never be the same again.
39 Feature you feel should be fixed : ::the kedut2 skins need to be iron plz!(when in getting old)
40 People you miss the most right now : ::God..
41 First love : ::him
42 When you cried the most : ::i need to be alone for a while especially coz my heart hurt so much.
43 When do you feel you’re grown up : ::when my mom ask me to wear bra. ahaha
44 What you don’t like : ::mosquitoes. stupid asshole!sukati jak bite people!huh.
45 When you felt happy : ::i cant sleep eventhough i feel exhausted. seriously.
46 When you were most flabbergasted : ::huh?
47 Best looking person of the opposite gender you’ve seen so far : ::David Cook
48 Why aren’t you going out with anyone : ::i will if boredom killing my mood~
49 What you feel towards that person : ::who's tat person? love maybe.*blushes*
50 What would you say to the people actually reading this? ::u've been tagged!!!~
51 Something you’re most worried about : ::my sunburn. im getting a bit darker..omg!i need extra whitening repair skin lotion!!!
52 When do you look most weak : ::i will rest for the whole day.
53 How do you NOT get dumped: ::i dont dump~
54 3 things a person NEEDS : ::breath.live.water.
55 Your grades in school : ::high grades
56 #1 on your phone : ::adeq
57 Phone company : ::phone cmpany?u want the number ka?paloi.
58 Phone bill : ::i never handle those bills.
59 Place you want to go : ::heaven.
60 Favorite TV program : ::CSI
61 Movie that pissed you off : ::adala that stupid movie..
62 Movie you watched with most meaning : ::the passion of christ.im so touching.
63 Most recent movie watched : ::ntg.seriously i havent watch any movie for this beginning of year.
64 Movie you want to recommend : ::the passion of christ. i love tat movie..very touching.
65 If you could become a character inside a movie : ::jessica alba in her movie honey.i love the way she dance.
66 How many net cafes are you a member to : ::noh
67 Which do you go to most often : ::noh
68 What you feel about this cafe? : ::pa ka? no feeling.
69 What you want to say to the starter of the cafe? : ::introduce your net cafe to the worldwide so that everybody will know include me.
70 You believe it is okay to marry someone else to save the person that you love :::no.never. coz he dont love me.just bcoz u want to save him? from wt?im not tat kind but as wat i said,i do care bout others feeling...
71 What would you do if your parents didn’t bless your decision to get married :::they wont do that coz its my decision n i noe what im doing.and my family will support me.
72 Do you think you’re a player : ::no. im not!i dont like players!
73 What time do you wake up : ::depends la..
74 When you go to sleep : ::i take off my b** and cover half of my body with my bubbly blanket and i must have my bantal busuk n also bantal pelok n not forgetting my snoopy .winks3
75 If someone you met for the first time asked for your number : ::..not for the 1st date.
76 What would you do if you liked someone at a meeting : ::my heart beats like a drum..like a drum..dum dum dum.
77 Celebrity you want to go out with : ::David Cook
78 How many kids do you want : ::ask my future hubby
79 Something you really want to be good at : ::counting your taik lalat.
80 What I want to be in 10 years : ::successful woman
81 Someone you’re jealous of right now : ::nobody
82 A word that you use a lot : ::"aiseh..". no idea y.
83 What I do when I first wake up : ::blurr and blinking my eyes..
84 What would you do if you picked up a million dollars : ::charity especially for church . the balance will be shopping.
85 What would you do if you became invisible : ::counting taik lalat on your face..
86 Singer you think is the best singing live : ::jordin sparks..
87 Singers you don’t understand why they even sing : ::donno..
88 A kind of man you don’t like : ::hypocrite + cheating on his gf/wife..
89 A kind of woman you don’t like : ::slut!
90 What would you do if you found someone you love more than the person you’re dating right now : ::i wont leave the person that i love...for sure.im loyal in a relationship.honestly.
91 What would you feel if you met someone you’ve broken up with : ::no feeling
92 Most important possession : ::my stuffs.
93 What you do when you first get online : ::sign in my yahoo messenger.
94 What surprised you the most : ::when someone give me a million of white roses..how i wish.
95 What you do when you can’t fall asleep : ::dreaming n a lot of imagination.
96 What do you think you were in your past life : ::somebody's me..
97 If you were to be born again : ::never.
98 What are you going to do after you finish this : ::sleeping n dream bout him..miss him eventho just met him that nite.
99 How honest were you : ::im honest when i answered this tag.
100 What do you want to say : ::i love u..huggies~
p/s : I tagged :
1. rita 2. regina 3.Cliff 4.ruth 5.mariati 6.franz 7.ruth 8.nelle 9.gibby 10.those who read this.
Last end of January, Stephy n i had a walked around the South Bangsar as i parked the car nearby the Terminal Universiti. Walking down the street while jalan2 cari makan (part of our job after we finished the 8am till 2pm classes) and we saw this building "Oldtown White Coffee" and Stephy suggested to have our rest and sweet Coffee talks inside. As we entered inside, we met with Tasha(Stephy's coursemate) at the entrance. pa gik..ajak la her sekali lepak with us. She said this Oldtown is the biggest Oldtown in KL for now on. maybe not for next year..huhu..i guess the branch will be at Kuching by next year..how i wish..maybe at The Boulevard?The Spring? SP?TJ? i really love the original white coffee which was blended with the almond nuts on top of it..slurrrppp.."ada UMmmm". and again i ordered Coffee Cappucino blended.so tamak la me.. but i shared with Stephy la since she ordered the Tea flavour. huhu.haha.
so this is what i called boredom when we took some photos of us after we had our few minutes Coffee talks.
there are so many things..i wish i could say..to so many people..
but i guess, sometimes, some things are better left unsaid, as some people are better left untold. does doing this make me seem like a coward? i don't care. sometimes i wish some people would just stop doing and saying things..but heck, who am i to tell people to stop simply because i don't like what they're doing. i'll keep things to myself as usual. i guess that's the best way to keep relationships with people in a good state. Call me a liar, i don't care. Because what I want to say are not lies. But as I said. Some things are better left unsaid. Makes the world a better place. Makes everything perfect and just to care about how will the person feels if im telling the truth. i know im wrong for keep this but as i said some things are better left unsaid.
my messy room..winks3
i know im weird nowadays as i told in my last post but im still normal just feeling so bored and lonely so tats y im talking to non living objects whenever i feel like tat. did i repeat and telling the same things? c how bored am i? im just chilling around and making noise in my room while my roommate just laughing watching me 'joget to the moon" around the room when i told her that im stress.i just finished my class at 10 pm just now and my brain damn exhausted received all the inputs in the Network Analysis Class just now.fuh.. i got this really packed clasess today..damn!
Nothing's wrong with me, by the way. I just feel like..saying this. I'm alright, and I always will be. ^-^..winks2..
as im about to take my nap,i had this really deep thinking. thinking about my family.yes,i miss mommy,daddy,lil sis lyn,sis jojo and bro bern.i miss them badly nowadays. whenever i feel like this,if only i could fly..i will just meet them now! seriously! im damn homesick. huhu. less sleep nowadays coz i get myself busy with the assignments which i have to submit on next week and im damn tired coz i have this 2 days packed classes. and the subjects are quite tough in this degree level. i only hope for one thing : "i wont give up and make sure i will maintain my dean list for this degree level".
i got one thing that i really think about. that was i'll stop clubbing. oooppsss..will i stop for now on?i have no reason to stop at the moment. but i got the feeling to stop clubbing.
honestly la, im clubbing to hear some great musics OBVIOUSLY.dancing for sure coz i love dancing and "cuci mata"..ooopsss! and also to have fun! but ill stop. and i will stop instantly when i got the reason to stop. but not now coz i still addicted to it.so who/what will that reason be? i have no idea..we''ll see later.im thinking bout my future and my parents never allow me to club! but yah..im not perfect so evrybody does the same thing when they want something they like. yah..its all about the future and i should have this deep thinking.
im weird nowadays and everybody knows that. coz i talk to non living objects whenever im alone and feeling so lonely. i learned lots of thing in my life.i learned that things dont come easy as i think..i have to work hard for it and do not depends much on luck..as elder said dont take things for granted.so i will take my chances as long as i keep work hard...
that makes me different ..im getting sleepy now and i need my sleeping beauty...daaa