dear Him.

dear Lord,
forgive me for i have sinned.


"I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away .."

Amen.


your beloved daughter,
jen.

p/s: imy.

what should i do when my heart still missing you..? sigh.

i wrote a few chapters..

6.7.2007.the day when I first met you
My life turned a page
Chapter one was how true love was made
You taught me with your kiss
Things about romance I missed
You knew everything from A to Z
What pleases you and what pleases me
Every chapters were about how much you loved me and how our love was meant to be.
13.09.09,it was on ur birthday. when love became to jealousy & when there was no honesty between us.
And it ended with the words broke up a week after.

January came in d beginning of 2010,when the two of us were trying to bounce back and try to make a new relationship.
We agreed & we tried to forgive and to forget..
but we just hung it up after that..till..
5.5.2010..when everything went to normal just like the first time i met u..
When the day u asking me "would u be my girlfriend?"
Im speechless & i let u kept wondering and waiting for my answer.
If you knew how much this moment means to me and how long I've waited for u.
If u knew how happy u are making me coz I never thought I'd love u so much.
You should understand the reasons i did these and u should know that in my heart i still love u.
Till 1 day, i found something unexpected.
You should just tell me the truth that I wasn't the girl for u.
I loved you so..but you leave me without news.
Now i keep wondering the reasons why u did these to me.
and I'm the only one there for me at night when the tears endlessly come.
end.

from the bottom of my broken heart.

dedicated to him

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Chorus: Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

p/s: dear you,it never should have come to this.. :(

movie hours..

saturday. i went out with George just to stay away from this boring & lonely place (refer to BMI). we headed to KLCC and decided to watch movie at TGV. oh yah! we watched The Sorcerer's Apprentice. damn. the movie was SUPER AWESOME! i loike and i fell in love with the actors. ooopss..Nicholas Cage,he's so macho in this movie. dont get me wrong here..but i admit, he's macho lah! coz for all this while, i dont really like him in any of his movies except for this one...

see? macho kan? *grins*

yeh..the Prime Millenium (did i spell it right?)..oh Dave.

what an awesome movie. 5 stars for sure!! yuhuu.. thanks to George for the great time. thats all for now. Have a blessed weekend everyone! :)

till then,hugs!

love,
jen

new semester

hello people.

its been a while since my last update. there's so many things to handle for the first week in this new semester.now im in semester 6 means that 2 more semester left. im taking 6 subjects with 16 credit hours included coQ (Culture Club) with 1 credit hour. :)

busy cam-whoring while waiting for the lect. girls nowadays..
*grins*

with one of my team members during the technoprenuership's class.

i wish im doing well for this semester. and oh yah, not forget my FYP thing. haiz. 40% for the FYP in semester 7. Oh my Gosh..wish me luck on that. :)

till then, hugs!

love,
jen

homesick.

i miss d family. i miss home. i miss the beautiful Kuching.
and i miss someone so badly.
sigh~
i hate for being so lonely like this.
:'(

It never should have come to this..

Lets just pretend we never met..Lets just pretend love never hit our hearts.. Lets just pretend we never kissed.. Lets just pretend you never heard of me.. Lets just pretend we met in dreams and we woke up the next day and realized we are not meant to be.

I'm the only one there for me at night when the tears endlessly come.Keeping it a secret and hiding every trace of evidence.

Dear you, someday u will know why im so broken.

what a day.

hello readers,

i miss to blogging here so i decided to update my blog.Besides me updating this blog, my neighbour keep singing to that stupid annoying song 'come my lady, come my lady..you're my butterfly..sugar baby..' song.i really wana kill him. 'if sora kacak sekpa jua..! Dragging each line of the song as long possible. What's causing all these? stoopid and annoying! ugh. *jaik me* ugh.

okay. forget it. last Thursday, my cousins, my sisters and i decided to watch The Karate Kid at MBO,The Spring. so we watched the 10.30pm movie.

The Karate Kid

both were trying to act like Jaden Smith. FAILED!

sisters

shall i say ' The Karate Adults??'

overall, the movie was AWESOME with the great & beautiful location. i would love to go to Beijing someday.the forbidden city? *in my wish list*. Jaden Smith is totally like his father, Will Smith in the movie 'Bad Boys' and Jackie Chan is like always. he is a MAN. i love his character in d movie. :)

today is the 3rd day in July. oh boy, its July. the time flies fast and a week to start my new semester and flying off to KL. ugh. i really hate the feeling. and yesterday,i just sent my belofy family to KIA and they gonna send my lil sis to INTEC, UITM Shah Alam. she's taking her foundation in pharmacist for 2 years.

with lil sis Cherilyn. now i miss her ody.. :(

and here i am, being so lonely and i even talk to non-living things. dont get me wrong here. sungguh bosan k. :P


thats all for now readers.

till then,
hugs~

love,
jen

Quick update

in Bidayuh costume.
im typical Bidayuh girl and im proud for being Sarawakian.
(^_^)

oh boy, the time flies fast and im so free and enjoying myself spending my 3 weeks of my holiday at my kampung. i love for being there.i love the beautiful creature and the clean fresh air.
oh wait,not forget the cold and fresh 'air gunung'. duh.
im gonna miss all these when im back to KL in 3 more weeks.
will update more soon!
till then.
hugs!

love,
jen